self-portrait tuesday 2/14/06: acceptance

february's challenge: "all of me"... embrace your mistakes, love the ugly bits.

in honor of the holiday o'love,
i am going to look on the
sweet side of what i usually
beat myself up over.

sometimes...ok, mostly,
i say the most innappropriate things.
but i embrace this because
it shows that i am passionate
and show my true self.

i talk too much.
all of my report cards
from elementary school say,
"kathleen talks too much during lessons"
"kathleen needs to focus more on her
learning and not on socializing"
i talk when i am nervous.
i talk when i am excited.
but, this is cool cuz
i meet a lot of people this way.
of course they probably think i am a nerd.
(joy, i was inspired by you to use that word)

my room is a mess.
instead of taking a few seconds
to hang up my clothes,
i throw them on our hope-chest
until the pile grows enormously.
but this is okay because
that is what saturday mornings are for.

i will let laundry sit for days
in a basket before i
fold it.
um...er...
i wish i could find something to love
about this.
but i can't.

i never write lesson plans.
this is crazy, i know.
but i love that i can be
spontaneous and work with
what the moment gives me.
even when i plan...it never goes
the way i thought it would anyway.
(for the record. i DO know WHAT i am going
to be teaching...just not always how
i am going to go about it...)

i don't plan my time wisely.
it is hard for me to focus on a task
and finish it without being distracted
by a million other things during the process.
(can you say ADD?)
i embrace this because it takes talent
to multi-task (which is what i'll call it).

i wait until the last minute to do everything.
this is good because it thrills me
to get it done and do well.
i work better under pressure.
i used to type all of my college papers
the night before they were due.
it was a challenge to me to see if i could
still get an A.

so i procrastinate.
and i can't shut my pie-hole when i need to.
and i can't sit still for long.

but i enjoy my free-time to the max.
and my voice is heard.
and i am adventurous.

love me or leave me.
i am not going to change now.