peace of mind
sunday.
time for deep breathing and silence.
coffee with chocolate soy milk
and extra snuggle time with my man
while kitties tumble around at our feet.
state-testing is over
and tomorrow starts a new week.
a week without crying in
my principal's office,
"i just can't do it."
i sobbed, "i need someone to take them for
an hour. i need to be away from them."
a week where i practice my ever-dwindling patience.
we'll take a spring walk and plant seeds.
we'll dye eggs in honor of easter and
the blooming of our environment.
we'll continue our quest for classroom peace.
not friendship. just peace.
friendship takes time.
but peace. citizenship. the art of being cordial.
that is my goal.
ok.
i am lying.
i want my shorties to love each other.
i want them to work together and share their thinking.
i want them to greet each other with hugs and kind words,
not sneakiness, undermining and full-on-hating.
i want them to feel it in their hearts, not just say what they think i want to hear.
i want them to be my old class.
there. i said it.
but if i say it out loud, i will cry again.
so i will stick with the simple goal of just peace.
even if it isn't in their hearts.
for now.
trust me. i will not settle.
there's nothing like a little seed planting...and peace is a good goal to have. one more week.
ReplyDeleteState testing...ack. Our doesn't happen until late April/early May. And guess who got stuck co-coordinating it this year? (sigh) Holding PEACE-full thoughts for your shorties. Maybe you need to have them just keep saying that WORD...to themselves...to each other...to you... Sometimes we (adults) need to get to the root of the word before we can begin to embrace the concept.
ReplyDeleteSending prayers of peace your way...
ReplyDeleteHave a good week.
your photos are always so touching. i'm sorry this year has sucked for you dear mama. i hope that spring brings love and kindness and washes away the fighting and bickering and hating. if not, than there isn't much time left in this school year. sad to think, but sometimes i think that's just how it is.
ReplyDeletehere's to peace and love in your classroom. xo
i love you spc and i love this post... the honesty of it. i share your pain and know every word to be true. how is it that they come to school with so much when they are so small? and then they have to learn and be tested and all i want to do with them is play games until i can teach them to share and cooperate and be a good sport. we play a lot of games... it causes as lot of drama. sigh.
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