how life rolls
long time, no write.
the warmer weather calls for
playgrounds and wagon-pulls.
playdates and photoshoots.
working five days a week in a job
that doesn't fill my heart but thankfully provides
health insurance to this cancer-survivor
and her family.
my to-do list is growing:
letters to write regarding unfair health insurance handling.
graduate class registration to figure out and
red-tape to update my teacher certification.
more health insurance craziness.
house repairs longer than our budget
and my old cat is starting to forget where his litter box is.
i know this is life. i know i need to take care of these things,
but i am not feelin' it.
all i want to do is
hula-hoop under the moon
and curl around my boys each night.
i want to have time with the people i love.
i want to breathe in life and
go a little crazy.
i want to find myself again.
I don't know, but I wonder if coming out on the otherside of cancer is a little like the transition of a new mom. Finding that balance of soaking up as much of that baby (your health) and yet remembering who you were before it's arrival.
ReplyDeleteThen again, who you are now is so much more amazing then who you were before (hard to believe, since you pretty much rock)...
you are an amazing woman Kook... soak it up, soak it in. and don't forget to breathe.
xo