breast is best

"it's like getting a titty twister",
i said, three weeks ago,
biting my lip hard as our
boy shortie latched on for his
9:00 feeding.

my husband looked up from his
harry-potter-trance.

"don't you remember when you were
a kid and someone would run up to you
and scream 'titty twister!!!' as they grabbed
your nipple and twisted with all of their might?"

he grimaced, held his chest, and said, "yeah", not
knowing where i was going with this.

"well...breastfeeding is like that.
it is like you are lifting your shirt,
thrusting your bare chest out,
while you bracingly say,
'go 'head...do it...,'
eight to twelve times a day".

silence.

note:
ever since the breast-saver-goddess
came to my house
from the la leche league
things have been MUCH better.
(see previous post)

my lip has healed
and my cursing has ceased.
until
he gets teeth.

spc: patterns

this month's spc challenge is about exporing pattens.
when i think of patterns, the teacher in me
automatically thinks: numbers.
this leads me to time measurement.
liam was eating every three hours at first.
then every two hours.
now it is between one and two hours.
all day.
all night.
the pattern of nourishment.
the pattern of his breathing as he
gulps and grunts happily.
the repeated expression each time he falls off my breast:
eyebrows raised, arms stretched high, milky face content and happy.



click here to see others' pattern interpretations.

one month and one day ago

our lives changed forever.
our hearts became fuller than we could ever imagine.
our estimate of how much poop a baby can produce was proven wrong.
we became more aware.
of everthing.

i love you, littlest man.
(that is what aunt lala calls you).

my goodness...

my heart
is not my own.

this morning,
mr. babypants
smiled at me.

it wasn't a reflex
or gas.
it was an
honesttogod
smile.
a reaction
to his mama.

sigh.

i will forever be a puddle.

to keep seeing the
boy-shortie goodness
click here.

oh yeah...right

"i am going to post at least one
photo a day for the first year..."
i said
before
i had this amazing little man in my arms.

i HAVE taken manymanymany photos.
and i am slowly,
while holding and feeding and staring
at the dear one we created,
uploading them here.

i have so much i want to share
and i will.
i promise.
no.
really.

keep checking the photos on my flickr site
to get your fix.

i'll be back.
i promise.

introducing...

one week ago i was in labor.
i was getting through each
contraction one long breath
at a time.
at 2:53 a.m., last thursday morning
we had our baby, liam.

10 pounds
3 ounces
22 inches long.
water birth.

i have spent a week staring at his perfect
toes
ears
mouth
fingers
shoulders
nose
eyes
and chubby legs.

it is killing me to be typing here
in case i miss something!

i am in love
a thousand times over.

life is good.
so, so good.

see more snuggaliscious shots here

p.s. thank you all for leaving me the sweet comments
and encouragement through this amazing journey!